Do you ever just not care??????

[billvau]

Read your own post and see where your focus is - on yourself. You've got to fight yourself thought-by-thought. I'd suggest simply starting by being thankful. Every time the negative thought comes in, turn into something to thank the Lord for. Think about what Christ has done for you and the eternity that you have awaiting you (1 Peter 1:3-5). Then, look at 1 Peter 1:6! In this you greatly rejoice, EVEN THOUGH NOW FOR A LITTLE WHILE...you face trials. Consider each phrase of 1:6

1 Pe1:6 In this you greatly rejoice, even though now for a little while, if necessary, you have been distressed by various trials,

You rejoice in the midst of present trials. How can you do this? Your rejoicing isn't based on the trial, it's based on what God has done for you in Christ.

"even though now for a little while" - trials are temporary

"if necessary" - necessary from God's point-of-view. He wants you to grow closer to Him through/in Christ. Living by faith, not by flesh.

"you have been distressed" - GOD MAKES TRIALS HARD! Yep, distressing, painful, etc. - emotionally, spiritually, and sometimes physically.

"by various trials" - "multi-colored" - God makes the trial unique to your spiritual growth needs. Your trials are different than mine.

So, I'd suggest start by being thankful for everything - all day long. When you're thankful, you are acknowledging someone else did something for you - and you appreciate it.

1 Peter was written to Christians suffering under Nero - horrific trials of persecution. The book starts this way because this is God's answer - focus on the eternal, not on the temporal, fallen life, here. The best is next. The rewards are next. Trials are now to ween you / break you away from the world's hold you. Let God grow you closer through your relationship with Jesus Christ - your moment-by-moment, day-by-day, relationship with Christ.

PM me if you have questions or want more.

God bless,

[mr goodguy]

To op. In my profession I see people die. I see depression,bargaining,hope and acceptance in my daily life. Let me give you an insight to a human behavior. When things are really bad and I mean I really bad that’s when people cling to something be it god. ,allah,saint, anything that they believed in bec there’s nothing left but to believed. Keep this in mind anytime you will have that thoughts in your Mind. People beg,barter,cry like you never seen a grown up cry when they see there dad,mom,son or daughter dying and there only hope is hope. You said you don’t care to live or die? Tell that to the patient who is in icu on a ventilator and still begging to live. Tell that to the patient that just had both legs amputated bec of a accident and they still wants to live and my story goes on and on. Life sucks sometimes we just have to suck the pain deeply. I’m praying for you brother and I’m hoping you find inner peace. It’s a beautiful life and it’s the only one you got!

[NORCAL#1]

I’ll pray for you op you will make it through this!

[wpage]

When it all gets to be too much. Best to not care. A survival tool in some environments.

Since there are many insensitive and corrupt folk out there. To get by you must not care. However, be not calloused to the good and lovely people that coexist. They make the caring and loving worthwhile.

Hang in there for the better days.

[jarhead714]

OP is probably between 35-45 years old. It’s called a mid-life crisis. If you can afford it, buy a Porsche but a little churchin’ up will be cheaper.

[Bert Gamble]

I have a slightly different take on the OP's problem. I just refuse to let the bastards win. Screw them and this made up crap that that is supposed to destroy us. Freaking Murder Hornets, really?

Channel the anger and frustration to point out their stupidity to every person possible. You will get some dirty looks and maybe even harsh words from the real morons, but it can give your life purpose.

Or you could just give up and let them take you. It really is your choice.

[Mr.Baker]